case of the Mondays

Rough day today. NO real reason. There is so much blooming right now. My allergies are out of control. I am trying the sudafed or benadryl and advil combo. Can't sleep- too much worry and pain...

was betrayed today by someone I dearly love-hate that and don't think I will be able to sleep because of it. Please Lord, help me to forgive and let it go.

nerve block

So, Monday I had an occipital nerve block. I must admit that I was very skeptical as to whether or not it would work. Remarkably, my headaches are down to a low dull ache. I can live with that. I haven't had any narcs since then, and my outlook is even better. This week, the kids were out on Spring Break. We stayed at Great Gran's house and visited with her and cousin Gabriel. He is just 9 yrs old. Right there with my girls. They all fought, played, fought, made up, and fought some more. Normally, this would have been the sort of thing that would have kept me medicated the entire time. We were going non-stop. The block was a true blessing and I can't wait to see how long it lasts.

not working...

Nothing in the "entertain away the pain" is working today. Neither are the meds. S is only making me anxious to the point that I cannot relax. This is the first day of Spring Break for the kids and we did absolutely nothing! Well, everyone slept in and I am trying to break this headache. My suspensions that Cymbalta and Amrix weren't doing anything have been proven wrong. As soon as possible, I will be getting back on them. Right now I am uninsured and that sucks. Because of this, I have been off some of my meds because of the cost. Not good. Must do more research.

stream of consciousness...

So, I live with a jumble of thoughts running through my head constantly. Sometimes, it might be like a soundtrack playing in my head as I watch the day go by, other times, I am not sure if I am remembering something from my own life or actually a book. I know this sounds crazy, but I live with chronic daily headaches. When the meds don't work, I try to loose myself in a book, movie, music or even facebook. I don't sleep well and I am sure that my hubby and kids think that I am insane. Maybe I will find out for myself if I am insane or not by writing through it.