Nerve Block #11...this is not a fun party

They keep telling me that the blocks areworking. I don't think that they are in my head. They don't fully understand the fact that the blocks that they keep giving me in my neck has taken away my neck pain and back part of brain pain(good grief that sounded so uneducated-sorry, I am tired and pissed now). I am SO SURE! BUNCH OF GOOBERS!I really feel like a pin-cushion between the blocks and the 37 injection sites of BOTOXa couple of weeks ago. The jury is still out on that one. As for the block, myneck doesn't presently hurt. All the pain in the entire world has found it's way to my frontal lobe. I am trying imitrex for bazillionth time. I am aware of the bad side-affects thatcome with that drug when I usually use it. I don't care anymore how bad they are! Bring it-iet's see what you've got!!

Plus, the cherry on the top of this turd sundae is the fact that breakthru meds that the pn clinic wrote for me last was lortab. First, that is not touching my pain and it rebounds on me horribly. This is why I only want to see one pain management specialist. Someone that just doesn't look at me and say"Well, I know what I am going to write for you. I bet you that you won't even need them with the new extended release med that I wrote." She wrote EXALGO 8mg. From what I have read, this is a super low dose. I am going to bash my head now!

That's enough now. Stop whining! At least, I am sending this out where none of my normal, non-headachy,happy would ever find it! It is kina freeing to begin to just lay it all out there for all cyber world to see and I don't even have to listen to any stupid story from a well-meaning person who just asks about my headaches in public. I save the "Oh, I am doing great-miracle treatment from magical goat feces. Good luck finding any!

cervical blocks and pain clinic

so, I have been seeing a pain clinic. They took me off of dilaudid , fentanyl, and stadol. They were all my rescue drugs. I was given 5 mg. oxi's. laughable. I have been in so much pain. I first met with them on June 7. The first suggestion was to use a tens unit. I have been doing that on a daily baisis. The first cervical nerve block was done on July 21 on the left side. It didn't start working for a couple of days. Once it started working, it worked for 5 days and then just stopped altogether. I had another block on August 4 and saw the dr on Aug 5th. The block worked wuite a bit longer. It is still working off and on now. When I saw the dr, she put me on nucynta and changed the mg of oxy to 10 mg. still not hitting the pain.

It is amazing that I never realized how far down my back the pain went until the nerve block started to work. The blocks are helping my neck, but not necessarily my headaches. I want to get to the bottom of this-it is driving me crazy!!!

I have started on supplements daily. It is not that I think it is the perfect combination. I am taking glucosamine, vit e 400 i.u., and quin B strong B-25. These are what I am starting with. Hopefully, I will feel some success.

a hopeless case

so, I saw Dr. L today. As we were talking about my case, he pointed out something he wrote in my file 10 years ago. He basically said that I was a hopeless case. He thinks that I might be better off seeing someone at a pain management clinic. He was a bit hopeful about the probability of having botox injections covered by new ins. company. We shall see...

adding to my usual suspects of the drug world:
cymbalta 60 mg, amrix 30mg, valium 10 mg, ambien, and the big guns...dilaudid, stadol and actiq. I am going to try topomax again. It has been 5 years since I last tried it. Even if I only get a month or so of relief, it would be worth it! It even made me lose weight because I had such a bad taste in my mouth all the time. There was also the issue of the loss of conversational skills. Words would just escape me-but that can happen even without the med. He also added bystolic(for high b.p.) I have also tried that in the past. It has been written off-label for headaches. I am ready to hit these headaches ot of the park for good.

The next thing that I know I need to be trying to get on disability. It seems like the only real option that I have.

On a personal note- we got really sad news about one of WM's childhood friends killing himself. What a sad, shocking, and seriously messed -up turn of events. I know that Nathan is in the arms of God right now. I just hope that Libby will be able to comprehend the situation. Lord, please send a hedge of angels to surround her during this hard time. I can't believe he is gone.

not working...

Nothing in the "entertain away the pain" is working today. Neither are the meds. S is only making me anxious to the point that I cannot relax. This is the first day of Spring Break for the kids and we did absolutely nothing! Well, everyone slept in and I am trying to break this headache. My suspensions that Cymbalta and Amrix weren't doing anything have been proven wrong. As soon as possible, I will be getting back on them. Right now I am uninsured and that sucks. Because of this, I have been off some of my meds because of the cost. Not good. Must do more research.