hopeless case revisited

so, back to Dr. Landy today. Nerve blocks again today-way lower this time. so far, helping a bit. I stopped taking stadol. It makes me crazy and angry and sometimes rebounds, so good-bye! I am still trying the topamax, self-adjusting per dr's orders.

Topamax is a such a strange med. I am getting numb digits and lips. My mouth is on fire & everything tastes so strange-and oh...yeah.I..keep..forgetting...words. Is it all worth it? I just want to live a normal life with my kids and hubby.

the doc gave me a homework assignment- to research occipital nerve stimulator implant and the nerve decompression surgery. I am up for anything at this point!

later taters